Awake My Soul

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The official before and after race pictures.

I just can’t say enough about these people and the bond we share. They all have a special place in my heart.

MUDDER 2015!!!!

iamrunner:

As you can see, awakemysoul69 looks like she enjoyed Electroshock Therapy.

I look like I need therapy.

I’m fairly certain what looks like a smile is really a grimace. I was so glad to be at the end!

justasmirk:

Next time you call someone bae, I hope a little part of your brain reminds you that in Danish, bae means poop.

I may actually start using it now.

I don’t know I swear I love you too I swear DON’T SHOOT ME

I don’t know I swear I love you too I swear DON’T SHOOT ME

My Tumblr Crushes:littlerunnergurlprettypurplepancakethetroothandnothingbutthetruthjuskydoodlewatsitrecreationallyscoldedsnapthistigerfuturelotterywinnerboxedwineoclockI LOVE EVERYBODY BUT ALSO THESE PEOPLE A REALLY LOT OK? OK! My Tumblr Crushes:
  1. littlerunnergurl
  2. prettypurplepancake
  3. thetroothandnothingbutthetruth
  4. jusky
  5. doodlewatsit
  6. recreationallyscolded
  7. snapthistiger
  8. futurelotterywinner
  9. boxedwineoclock

I LOVE EVERYBODY BUT ALSO THESE PEOPLE A REALLY LOT OK? OK!

Maybe one of these days I’ll stop talking about finishing the Mudder, but that day isn’t today.
I can’t say enough about my teammates. I love them all so much. They are the funnest, bestest, most amazering people. I can’t wait to see them all again!
I talk about my job and how great it is but lately it hasn’t been. I truly love what I do, I just don’t love where I do it or that I have to be gone so much to do it.
So…I’m seriously considering going back to patient care. For a lot of reasons.
The bottom line is that work will always be there, and even if it isn’t, so what. It’s work. My kids will leave - that’s a fact. I have a finite amount of time with them and I want to be here.
Anyway, there’s a lot going on in my life right now, but even the stuff that’s stressful is ok. I feel good. I feel a sense of purpose and decisiveness. My soul is being fed (or is on the path to be).
And that is my wish for everyone. Find your soul food. We are all so busy making ourselves crazy thinking that it’s a car or a job or a house or jewelry, and that happiness will come when we get to that one point in time when something magical happens, but then you get it/there and nothing is different and so we just turn our focus to the other thing that must contain our happiness which won’t do it either.
Happiness isn’t outside, it’s inside. And no one else has the key, nothing else is the door.
I’m not claiming perfection or euphoria, but I think I’m figuring out some things before a lot of other people tend to, which is too late. I just want to be able to look back and feel like I did some things right, no matter what everyone else says.
At the end of the day, and at the end of my life, I’ll look myself in the mirror and answer whether my soul served the purpose for which it was intended. And I will know the answer. We all will know our answer.

Maybe one of these days I’ll stop talking about finishing the Mudder, but that day isn’t today.

I can’t say enough about my teammates. I love them all so much. They are the funnest, bestest, most amazering people. I can’t wait to see them all again!

I talk about my job and how great it is but lately it hasn’t been. I truly love what I do, I just don’t love where I do it or that I have to be gone so much to do it.

So…I’m seriously considering going back to patient care. For a lot of reasons.

The bottom line is that work will always be there, and even if it isn’t, so what. It’s work. My kids will leave - that’s a fact. I have a finite amount of time with them and I want to be here.

Anyway, there’s a lot going on in my life right now, but even the stuff that’s stressful is ok. I feel good. I feel a sense of purpose and decisiveness. My soul is being fed (or is on the path to be).

And that is my wish for everyone. Find your soul food. We are all so busy making ourselves crazy thinking that it’s a car or a job or a house or jewelry, and that happiness will come when we get to that one point in time when something magical happens, but then you get it/there and nothing is different and so we just turn our focus to the other thing that must contain our happiness which won’t do it either.

Happiness isn’t outside, it’s inside. And no one else has the key, nothing else is the door.

I’m not claiming perfection or euphoria, but I think I’m figuring out some things before a lot of other people tend to, which is too late. I just want to be able to look back and feel like I did some things right, no matter what everyone else says.

At the end of the day, and at the end of my life, I’ll look myself in the mirror and answer whether my soul served the purpose for which it was intended. And I will know the answer. We all will know our answer.

Photo evidence of the bad assery from yesterday’s Mudder. I know they’re not the best quality but we took these with disposable cameras.

1. We’re not in this one but it shows the depth and intensity of muddy-ness.

2. Me and iamrunner after #1 (and I think mrstrivialbob’s shoulder).

3. The team after the first pit-stop. Feeling decent and kicking ass.

4. Me and littlerunnergurl doing arctic enema. It was really effing cold and going under was severely sobering.

5 & 6. littlerunnergurl doing the cage crawl and another pic of the obstacle just in general. This one scared me more than any other and I actually did it. This alone gives me a sense of pride and accomplishment.

7. Electroshock therapy. The last obstacle. iamrunner and I started off together but got shocked pretty quickly and separated.

8. Me - with the end in sight I pushed thru, getting shocked only once more. When they put that headband on me I cried a little, for real. That moment is gold.

I couldn’t have asked for a better group of people with whom to do this. All inspirations, all supportive and all awesome in the truest sense of the word.

Thank you, team, so very much. ❤️

Oh. My. Jeebus. 

Mac and cheese (homemade by @littlerunnergurl) and wine slushee. 

I’m in food heaven.

Oh. My. Jeebus.

Mac and cheese (homemade by @littlerunnergurl) and wine slushee.

I’m in food heaven.

trivialbob:

Before we all got muddy!
snapthistiger trivialbob mrstrivialbob abqryan iamrunner awakemysoul69 littlerunnergurl

Awwww yisssssProof!!

trivialbob:

Before we all got muddy!

snapthistiger trivialbob mrstrivialbob abqryan iamrunner awakemysoul69 littlerunnergurl

Awwww yisssss

Proof!!

In case you were wondering because I know you were how muddy the Tough Mudder is…

…my q-tip ladies and germs.

That was the level of muddy that was in my ear. 

Yes. 

IN. My. Ear.

In case you were wondering because I know you were how muddy the Tough Mudder is…

…my q-tip ladies and germs.

That was the level of muddy that was in my ear.

Yes.

IN. My. Ear.